The Perfect Day

So, yet again I've been awful at maintaining the blog. The main issue is that I love to write but I just don't have the time to at the moment. Working full time alongside being a mummy and having now taken up Thai boxing, fitting classes in twice a week, it's just not possible to blog as much as I would like to.

Things have been pretty hectic since I last posted. Work got majorly busy and my depression got worse. I have spoken to the doctor and been put on a waiting list for counselling again so hopefully that won't end up being too long. Valentines day this year was something I was looking forward to but also worried about a bit. As it turned out, I had the most perfect day and it was all down to my amazing boyfriend, Ed.

The day started with a long lie in, which was such a luxury as with work and/or the kids I never get out of bed later than 8am usually. We exchanged cards and gifts. Ed had bought me a gorgeous Pandora charm, which I love.

 Ed went to get breakfast and we had bacon, sausage and egg baps followed by a chocolate covered donut- delicious. After breakfast I stayed in bed some more before finally getting my lazy bum up and getting ready to go. Ed had told me we were going for a 'romantic walk' and to put on shoes I could get dirty.

We drove over to Swanage before turning up at a stables where Ed had booked a surprise horse riding session for us as it was something that was on my bucket list! I was totally shocked. I don't usually handle surprises well, or I tend to guess what's going on so it was pretty amazing to have something like this arranged. I was so happy, I couldn't stop smiling. All the way round the walk I was beaming, even if I was a little terrified when I first got on the horse. It was perfect and I felt free and relaxed for the first time in a long time.

After we had finished at the stables we went down to the beach and had a lovely little walk in the sand.

We got the ferry back across to Poole and, after a quick stop at Tesco's for some alcohol and dessert for later, we went back to get ready for our meal. We went to a Mexican restaurant and had some really yummy food, although I ordered too much and ended up feeling incredibly full I also had a couple of pretty delicious Strawberry Margaritas- adult slush puppies at their best!

It was freezing outside so instead of going for a drink after dinner we just went home and had the dessert and Prosecco before snuggling up in front of the TV.

It was the best Valentines and reminded me how lucky I was to have found someone I feel so right with amidst all the crazy things in life. Life is short. It should be spent with the people you love.

30 Day Celebrity Challenge: Day 19: A celebrity love that others seem to dislike

I really love Britney Spears, but most people seem to dislike her. I have heard people call her trashy, a bad mum, a bad singer, bad dancer, fat etc etc. I don't think any of those things are true. She did go through a big rough patch, but to me that just makes her more real. She definitely isn't fat, just not always super skinny as we are made to see as normal in celebrities.

back when she was young and innocent...

I have always loved her music, since I was still very young, and although she isn't the most amazing vocalist out there, she does produce catchy songs, and I have only really disliked a couple of her singles. I love that she managed to reinvent herself with her more clubby albums, moving away from the pop princess image. I think she is an amazing woman to have come through the other side of bad times. I love her!

Sometimes it Lasts in Love, but Sometimes it Hurts Instead....

As a single mum, sometimes it does feel pretty lonely at night once Cameron is asleep in bed and I can't deny occassionally thinking back to when I have been in relationships. I don't want to be back with any of my exes as they are all an ex for a reason.... but it is interesting for me to look back on how each one made me a different person slightly.

My first proper boyfriend was when I was 15. I stayed with him on and off for two and a half years, despite everyone we knew thinking we should just stay away from each other. We cheated on each other, had no trust for each other and just argued most of the time, but it was young love and I wanted it to work. We split for good just after I finished my A Levels and I am so glad we did! He has turned out to be an even nastier person than when we were together now.

My second relationship started about 6 months later and was with a guy on the same course as me at University. He was totally the opposite to my ex, a 'nice' boy who treated me really well, was always polite to my friends and family etc. I was with him for 18 months, but after a year, things had changed for me and I no longer had the same feelings. So followed an awkward, awful six months of me trying to avoid spending as much time with him, still being on the same course and living ten minutes away from each other. I do feel I should have handled things in a more grown up way. In the end he cornered me after one of our end of year Uni exams and asked me how I really felt and we ended up splitting up in a very public place. It was not a great time, although we did manage to stay friends for the Summer, before his new girlfriend started resenting our friendship and put a stop to it when she threatened me when I was pregnant. I never spoke to him again after that, despite spendind a whole year in the same class for our last year of Uni.

My third relationship started about 3 months after I had split with my 2nd boyfriend. I met him on my work placement and found it very interesting to be with someone 9 years older than me. It was a long distance relationship, had zero trust (at least on my part), was probably doomed from the start... but I have always loved a bit of drama in my relationships... I found the distance thing way too hard in the end though and ended up throwing in the proverbial towel after 6 months together.

I have been single for 18 months now, and although sometimes I do feel lonely and miss having someone to share things with and just hang around with other than my son, I also feel a lot more free to be myself than I have ever felt before in any of my relationships. I am definitely in no rush to find myself a boyfriend. I am focussing on getting my career sorted out in the next 6 months and raising my son to be a better man than any of my previous boyfriends. I am not anti-men (despite what my Facebook friends may think from statuses!) but I am embracing life as a single mummy. Yes, it is hard, but what don't kill you, only makes you stronger, right?

Are you single and enjoying it? Or are you in a relationship and loving it?