Two days ago somebody wrote on Facebook that New Look had a sale on. I brought up the site and spent what must have been at least half an hour browsing the site looking at all the lovely things on sale, adding some to my basket and hovering over the proceed to checkout button. I even went away from it, doing some more of my dissertation, and went back to it... Looked through the items I had picked and slowly deleted them.... and then closed the window completely. I didn't purchase anything.
I also had a gorgeous pair of white wedges in the basket which I had tried on before but didn't get because they were around £30. In the sale they were down to £9 and only left in my size. It was fate, wasn't it? So why did I end up leaving them both, and the other summery buys, in that virtual basket? Because, I am queen of talking myself out of purchases. Internet shopping isn't too bad.... a lot of people just browse and never buy. But I will go into actual shops, pick something I really like up and put it back again once I have walked around the shop a few times.
And it doesn't stop at clothes.. I will go into a food shop like Tescos, pick up some yummy treat and then five minutes later, return it to the shelf, shoppers remorse already setting in before I have even got out my purse. It will happen with everything and anything I go to buy. Even things I actually need like deodrant or a new toothbrush I can stand around considering whether I can afford it for ages. I am a nightmare to shop with. My mum refuses to go with me anymore as even food shopping tends to take over an hour due to my huge levels of indecisiveness!
Maybe one day, when I'm rich and famous, I will be able to justify spending money on myself and this silly timewasting will finally stop.. For now, I will continue to drool over clothes, shoes and makeup online, placing them all in that infamous basket, where they will stay forever more....