Cameron and Carly- An Update

It seems like forever since I last did an update on the children so I thought now was as good a time as any. They have grown up so much in the last year and I am so proud of them as they grow into intelligent, headstrong, beautiful children. They are my greatest achievements.

Cameron

Cameron is now four and a half and will be going to school in September. He has been ready to go since he turned four so I am very excited for him as he is going to love it. He loves learning new things and he wants to be able to do everything and know everything so his thirst for learning is definitely there. I find out which school he will be going to next month so that is both scary and exciting. Cameron and Carly both attend nursery full time whilst I work so he has become a lot less shy over the past few months. He has his own little group of friends who he enjoys seeing and spending time with. Cameron loves Dr Who and seems to have taken after me in getting obsessed with things easily. At Christmas, everything was Dr Who, and I think he may end up having a Dr Who themed birhthday party come September. I had never watched the show before he started watching it, so it's nice to be able to see it for the first time with him.

Carly

Carly is coming up to two and a half and has such a strong character. She is a right little madam like her mother! She is very feisty but also fiercely loyal and so loving. Her language has really come on in the last couple of months and she has such a huge vocabulary now. The things she comes out with are hilarious! Carly absolutely adores nursery, as I knew she would from when Cameron used to go alone, she always tried to go in as well. She runs straight in and gets on with it each morning when she is dropped, and she is loved by everyone at the nursery. At home, Carly loves nothing more than watching Frozen and running around in the garden. She is quite a tomboy and is braver than her older brother. She is going to be very jealous of him when he goes to 'big boy school' in September.

I will try and do more regular updates on the children as I do love talking about them!

What Would You Like to Be When You Grow Up?

"What would you like to be when you grow up?" It's a question often asked when you are a child and you don't often really know what you really want to be and most of the time, when answering, you will have chosen something that looks the most fun. Perhaps a fireman or a doctor. Most people don't go on to become what they 'wanted' to be as a child, whether it was an unrealistic dream or just because their likes and ambitions changed as they grew up.



My 18th Birthday party- theme was
 'what you wanted to be when you were seven'

For my 18th birthday party I held a fancy dress party with the theme 'what you wanted to be when you were seven'. The outfits ranged from serious to hilarious (somehow we had two girls who wanted to be ladybirds)! I went as a celebrity. I wanted to be lots of things when I was that age. One being a teacher, another a secretary and being famous was also quite high up there.

I think my main issue, which I have realised recently through counselling for PND, is that whereas most people leave this indecisiveness behind when they reach adulthood, I still want to do lots of things, to be lots of things and this makes it hard to focus on any one thing I set my hand to.

I love working, but right now I am unable to put the time and effort I need to into my business

Last week I had to make the difficult decision of taking a break from my events business. I was already finding it increasingly difficult to work around a very mobile Carly, but when Cameron's childcare also fell through, I realised that working around both kids week in, week out, would be near impossible and not fair on me or the kids to put us under that pressure. It has been hard as I want to be able to work, but at the same time, I am unable to afford childcare for them both in order for me to put in the time and effort the business needs. It's almost like having three kids, and unfortunately it has meant having to put the needs of the business to the back of my mind for the time being.

In the past, blogging has led to opportunities such as writing for More Magazine
and taking part in their Superfan issue

The positives to have come out of this is that I have been freed up to have a think about what my other passions are, apart from events. I have rediscovered my love of blogging, and when talking to my counsellor, I have realised that writing is what makes me happiest. I have been looking into freelance journalism and also rethinking about books that I have started writing in the past. Writing is something I love and can be slotted in to my life with relative ease.

Modelling has always been something I have loved

 

I have also set up a modelling page. As a natural born poser, I love being in front of the camera and I have really enjoyed taking part in photo shoots in the past. I wouldn't want to model full time as a career, but this is definitely something I am looking into doing in my spare time.

Ultimately, being a mum and doing things that make me happy
are what's important right now when battling with PND

As someone who has struggled in the past to come up with hobbies on my CV I am determined to understand what makes me happy outside of work and the kids, and I think these two things are definitely a good start. Ultimately being happy is most important right now in battling my PND so I am going to enjoy my break from the business by spending time with my kids, writing and modelling as well as looking at the positives in life. Life is too short not to spend it doing what makes you happy!

And who knows, this break might even help me finally come up with the answer to that all important question- "What do I want to be when I grow up?"

My Christmas in Pictures!

Carly's first christmas!

Christmas morning beach walk and visiting Grandad's bench

Cameron opening pressies

Christmas Dinner with the family

Me and my babies <3

Cameron being introduced to Cookie Monster

With my lovely fiance :)

Christmas cocktails and lunch with my dad and sister

New Years Eve with my gorgeous daughter

Great nan cuddles

More fooooood!

"Mummy, my hat doesn't fit!"

Popping down to celebrate at midnight with my cousin and his fiancee at their restaurant

It's New Year!

New Years Day walk along the beach

Me and my not so little man

All wrapped up warm and cosy!