30 Day About Me Challenge: Day 18: A letter to someone you miss.

Dear Grandad,

There is not a day that goes by when I don't miss you. You were very much like a father to me because I never really remembered living with both my mum and dad and you were always around, taking us on holidays and singing to us. You used to call me all kinds of sweet little nicknames like petal bum, I only have happy memories from childhood and you were a huge part of it. When I started 'growing up', you were quick to include me in everything the adults did, from sitting at the 'big people table' on special occassions, to taking me out with you in the car and trying to teach me from an early age how I would learn to drive! When you became ill, my mum was very honest with me so I knew that we might lose you. When you became worse, it was hard but I loved spending every minute we had left with you. I am so grateful we had the last few months together as a family and managed to go to Disney and have such amazing times. I will always remember the last time I saw you, you were tucked up in your hospital bed and we thought you were on the mend. I just said goodbye to you as if it was any other time as that is all we thought at the time. The next morning you had become critical, I was kept away in case it upset me to see you as you were. I will always feel some regret that I didn't get to say a proper goodbye. I looked at the clock the exact minute you died, although I didn't know that at the time. It was because such a great man had passed away from the World. I went to see you several times in the funeral parlour. Some people would be scared to or see it as morbid. But I knew that was only your body, but that your soul was somewhere away from the body, watching over me and watching me say my goodbyes. Your funeral was also so hard, but I read from a book to you and the recording I made along with the other grandchildren was played in church. Everyone there felt awful, because you touched so many hearts whilst you were alive. I miss you everyday and wish you were around to see Cameron who would adore you as much as I did when I was a child. I look forward to the day that I see you again, and hope that I make you proud because that is all I ever wanted to do.

Love you always Grandad,
Emmaline  xxxxxx